Fast Foward from 2009 until 2017

Thoughts on Graduation:

 

Here we are arriving at graduation. I am not sure what to think or how to feel. I just spent the last three years of my life in school. I finally have a job to look forward to (that’s not retail). I finally have all that I hope to achieve in my adult life (a job, a place to live, some stable income).

I had hoped to have achieved this a long time ago. That never happened (life throwing’ ya lemons) I look back and reflect on the last three years. What lessons have I learned? Who do I need to thank? Who is that I became in the last three years?  Did I just become some schlep who went back to school because I couldn’t find a job with my art school degree? I keep asking myself these questions. I have been doing that all week. These things have been playing in my mind all week. In my attempt to write honestly, (and hopefully better)- I am sharing the answers.

 

  1. Who have I become in the last three years?

I think for me, I became someone that once again had to push hard. I speak true to myself and say, “Nothing Ever Comes Easy” (which why I have this tattooed to me). I am learning to be fiercely unapologetic to others. I have had to push out so much negative in my life. When it came to negativity about my skills, my career, my looks (all of it – and god damn those looks because that self-image thing is such a bitch). I learned to push beyond what others wanted. I had to know deep down what I wanted. (I’ve read all that bad-ass books on girl bossing and such). I knew that I wanted a job. I had to prove everyone wrong and show them I was serious. I had to take extra courses in writing to show I was committed to getting better and what I set forth to do (Marketing ahem!)  (and the writing thing I am still getting down).

I became more of my true authentic self I feel like. I started to understand that (I ramble a lot) I can use both sides of my brain to create my career. I had to realize no matter what anyone says, “I am enough” (even though majority of the time my brain doesn’t say it). That’s who I am- someone who had to push beyond the words “Never going to happen”. I once heard my friend Esther tell me the one thing I’ve always liked about you “You know who you are and You are grounded in that”.

That life is can be harder than you think. Life can throw a lot of crap your way, you just must roll with it (hell half the time I was crying at life).

 

  1. What lessons have I learned?

“Failure Isn’t an Option”- Corri Mcfadden

I ended up getting this quote tattooed to me; because it spoke to me so deeply. I knew when I started school I just had to find something better. I set out to study web design. That didn’t quite work out the way I had hoped. Marketing just kind of fell in my lap. My biggest fear in life is that I would end up not being able to make it in the world (and I’m hanging in there now) I knew that Failure couldn’t be an option for me I had just had to make this degree work for me. Hopefully it will.

“You are the most vital part of your creativity” –Melissa Camilleri

“YOU” is the key emphasis here. I learned that without me there was no fun creativity in blogging, school, social media whatever I choose. That “I” had to make this happen.

“When it comes to blogging FUCK all of the hate*

A few of my good blogger friends (Corri Mcfadden , Hallie Wilson, Janet Mandell,  Jennifer Worman, Natalie CraigCourtney Quinn  and Maya Mcdonaldall pushed me to come back to blogging and told me to Fuck what everyone else thinks. These ladies are some serious bad ass babes (I thank them for the words of encouragement!) Here I am trying that out again! (and ps, the people on Get Off My Internets thanks for saying some of the things you did, because I realized hey you took the time to come to my blog and read it and tell me I am fat and ugly and ps I’m still here)

“Be who God made you to be”– Dad

Dads have the best advice, don’t they? My dad has been the person that I have needed the most in the last few years. He was always there with words of advice and continues to be. God created me to be this way and I need to keep on doin’.

Who do I have to thank?

Friends- if you have someway come across with me at work, school or social media without your love and friendship-you mean the world to me. (I don’t just use that term loosely) I have always felt somewhat isolated from society so the few people I do have in my circle mean a lot.

Dad- I love you. You are the man I admire so much. You mean so much. I can’t emphasize this enough.

God- without the almighty Father the one that was there in the deep down when no one else saw the pain-You were the one. I cant and couldn’t keep going the way I was without you God. I love you.

I feel fortunate to have these experiences in the last three years. Thank you for taking some small time out to read this experience. I look forward to the future and whatever may happen and hopefully a new blog to write in the future.

 

 

With love

-Alex

Fall Oxfords

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Jacket/Vest (Vintage) | (Similar Here) / Top: Audrey Hepburn Shirt / Pants: Boyfriend Slim Jeans / Taupe Oxfords (c/o White Mountain) /Bag: Vintage Gucci Bag | (Similar Here)| Bracelets: Old Navy, Juicy Couture / Watch : Gucci (Similar) / Necklace : Triangles (c/o Favery) / Broach : Vintage / Hat: Wilson’s Leather

 Hello all,  I’m glad to be back, I want to say thanks again for all of your critiques, and welcome to my newly revamped blog. As you can see  I have made a few changes, I hope you like what you see.  (New lens, and a whole new site will be rolling out soon.) Now that fall is in full swing,  I have become obsessed with long vintage vests,  I’ve seen them all over Milan Fashion Week,  I simply had to do a DIY of my own. (Hint; Take an old coat and seam rip the arms off)  I want to thank the lovely people of White Mountain Shoes for sending me a pair of oxfords,  I am really obsessing over them for fall, the color is perfect for this weather.  I hope you all have a wonderful start to your week and thank you for your love and support! 

Sincerely,

Alex

Alive at Night I ♥ NEW YORK

NWFW

It’s here #HAPPYNWFW. This is the time the world is watching. The world is watching all the trends and how can we relate them into your everyday wardrobe. I am over the moon to be watching on youtube. Thank God for fashion week recaps right? Some day i will be there. mark my words.. but seriously i have included a few videos of favorite past shows.


the BLONDS i am MORBIDLY obsessed with the blonds. They are like the BEES KNEES. I just love the futurism here. Every collection i watch i am so drawn in more and more.


i still cant be over Alexander Wang S/S 2013. I keep watching this over and over. I am so obsessed with Alexander Wang.


Last but not least, Proenza Schouler. I cant get over the f/w 2013-2014. I simply just love everything about PS.

I hope you enjoyed me showing a few of my favorite designers. I am making it a promise to myself some day i will get to fashion week. Remember if you are following me on Instagram, Twitter, Facebook or Pinterest hashtag #NYFW and tell me what trends you are looking for? xx

 

 

 

Alex

I Miss The Days of Being On Fire.

MotivationIt’s funny that the summer is almost over. I had been thinking about it being summer, and how this summer what have i accomplished? I can’t really say that i have a don a ton of things. I haven’t gone anywhere. I hardly yardsled or thrifed. I’ve been trying to save my money. I however have been recently struggling with my blog. I really am trying to keep going with it. I recently told a blogging friend that i cant find a community that styled in the heartland belongs into. I post my outfits, i do my thing. Mostly my outfits are thrown together in seconds because my mind thinks fast. I have had other friends tell me your blog is terrible You cant write properly. It has made me feel like this is such a discouragement to me.   I however, told myself this summer your gonna post everyday for 1 month. Monday – Friday. I started that back in july. What happen is that my blog became infested with malaware. It totally ruined my plans of posting every week. I became lazy and not focused.

Sometimes we all need motivation. Kinda like exercising? I think lately what has been driving me, it feels natural when i step in front of that camera. It has been long in my history of photographing myself. i feel at home. I really lately have enjoyed photographing myself. I have also been really influencing and watching documentaries on Bands like Nirvana, The Sex Pistols, and many other various people. I find myself just thinking about my blog, that i started this thing to be famous and popular> (i still can dream?). I fully realize that it wont be like that now. I just enjoy having my creative little space that i can do what i want.

When i work, i am a rather shy person. I want to take my photos and write the way i see things. I have made a promise to myself, to just keep going. Forget what you originally wanted. Don’t keep thinking this or this will happen. Just keep going. Build on what you like to do. I kinda of guess that’s kind of how i feel about life lately. Stop listening to everyone else. Just do who you are. Stop having these pre-concieved notions of being famous for a blog. I am thinking that despite trying to achieve success. I am just going to keep thrifting and being true to owning that. I struggle with no one reading this blog. I struggle with people being super critical of my writing. I struggle with everyone thinking this is a big joke.

I think for me,  the term “Blog Like A Motherfucker” is a relative term. It is more for me to stay motivated. It is just a thing, you know motivation. It’s to work hard. To just keep taking photos for me. I think maybe I’ll find a community or a place I’ll fit in with my blog. I just am making you a promise in this post, to just keep doing this. I promise trying not to be lazy even during school and keep going. #BLOGLIKEAMOTHERFUCKER.

 

 

Ghetto Gold x Biggie Smalls

Ok Ok, are you sick of seeing #NYFW stuff already? I know i Am certainly not, tomorrow comes S/S 2013 more madness than ever! But tonight i wanted to take some time out to post an outfit i wore sunday. Sunday i attended a picnic, and i had a friend take these incredible shots for me. so you can totally check out the details super awesome. (big special thank you to Karl K for your help!) I hope you are digging the biggie biggie shirt.

Credits:  *Top -Biggie Smalls XXXXL shirt (Thrifted in Chicago @Salvation army in pilsen) Pants: Gap- Zippered Leggings (old) Sweater: Yellow Cashmere- Neiman Marcus (old) Necklace: (belt) – Old -Thrifted Glasses (my own reading glasses) Rings : (Green-Yardsale) -(Double Finger Ring- Salvation Army -somewhere in wisconsin)  Bracelets-  (#SOE legendary bracelet c/0 #S.O.E. (check them out here : https://www.facebook.com/STUNTONEM) Gold Bracelets- (yardsales, all of them) (Yellow Bracelet-Yardsale) Shoes – (NOT SEEN gap- Old)

Hope you love, see you tomorrow. xx

alex