It’s been a long, long night

The farther I go, the further you get away from who we really are
I choose a different route, a different path in life
Praised by many, yet still labeled an outcast

 

Hi there, you are probably wondering where I have been? Why did I decide to take almost a year break from my blog. I decided to step back out of the light for awhile to take a hard look at my blog. Was this blog something I wanted to continue ? Was this something that I felt i needed to do to be creative?  I honestly felt that after a year almost away I still am unsure that I want to keep going.

One of the main reasons I originally started i chased the blog for the wrong reasons. I just wanted to be famous- which totally was the wrong reason. I didn’t want to work hard. Once I initially got over that crap I started to work at this whole blog. After everything that was plastered all over Get Off My Internets. I cracked down on how i wrote, my blog , my photos. It still didn’t click though I still didn’t feel like i was doing this whole thing right. I deeply was ashamed of myself and my blog. I am only human.. I admit putting your life on the internet wasn’t the best idea.

I wasn’t being accepted by society already due to my size. I struggled being accepted by this blogging community. I’ve taken almost close to a year off. I still consider myself a blogger. I am still struggling to keep this going or not. While I was away I Started a couponing blog and I write a gaming blog as well. I kept those going for the fun of it. I just don’t know if style or my weird sense of fashion has a place in this world.

I wanted to originally write some sappy post, but that didn’t sound OK. I wanted to write a short post. I’ve been working on my writing slowly since I’ve been gone. I’ve been working on a lot of changes in my life. If you follow me on Instagram you know that i have gotten rid of tons of junk. I have had people pushing me to donate, recycle and sell crap. It’s been a therapeutic process for me. It has been good and the best experience of my life.

I don’t know honestly if I’m going to keep posting fashion in the real world. I might use this blog for just personal writing ,or what ever. I don’t know but this weekend I’m going to GBS again. I cant wait for a vacation and to clear my head.

Until maybe next time,

alexandria

It’s been a long, long night
and we’re still learning how to survive.
Will you walk with me awhile,
and see a world with brand new eyes?
We see the sights,
and we’re fighting for our lives.

 

 

10 comments on “It’s been a long, long night

  1. Hi Alex, I must say that this is a great post! Honesty will get you everywhere and I think that if you stay true to yourself and to others then your blogging will only get better with time.

    Blogging about things that you are passionate about will ultimately get you the best result’s in my opinion so perhaps you can think about what get’s you and your friends excited and start there, only just last week I completely deleted my entire blog and relaunched it under a completely new range of topics!

    All the best 🙂

  2. Alex, Im sure you are not alone with these thoughts. There is so much more to blogging than I had ever imagined but if you are blogging about your life with your feelings etc then you are really putting yourself out there for interrogation, and some people can be extremely nasty (hiding behind the anonymity of their laptop) As with all things in life, its good to evaluate the whys and wherefores of what you are doing and ultimately only you can decide if this feels right to continue. I wish you luck regardless as life is too short to sweat this stuff. Do what makes you feel good, and that will shine through in your posts.

  3. Blogging can definitely be a tough adventure. Between not knowing what to post or not feeling motivated to keep up all the work, blogging is definitely more time-consuming than most people realize. Whether you want to continue blogging or not, try to remain happy and positive!

  4. I think one of the hardest things that a person can do is to find the strength to be themselves. The world spends so much time trying to fit in that we don’t take to see who and what we are. Be you and be what you feel you are in your heart. There are people for you and you know what they could be waiting for a voice like yours to shine its light in the dark.

  5. This was all said so well. Thank you for sharing your personal thoughts along with your doubts and fears. I understand where you are coming from. My only advice to you is to continue what makes you happy. If it doesn’t make you smile, move on to something that does.

  6. I had a personal blog which saw lots of views but I didn’t want my life on display so I changed it up to do something different and never looked back. Whether you stay or go do what’s best for you because blogging will always be here

  7. Blogging has turned out to be so much more than I thought it would be when I started. I am loving how far it has taken me and the career it has become for me and my husband! You will find your voice for what inspires you.

  8. Hello Alex! This is actually my first time (I Believe) visiting your corner of the internet and I for one hope you decide to stay. I think that we each have our own take on life, relationships, people and even fashion. I love your look from what I’ve seen and I don’t think size has anything to do with it. Fashion and a sense of style come from pieces of a person’s personality. They show in each top, bottom and accessory and I think sharing that is wonderfully amazing. Even if I may not choose to wear it I definitely love seeing other peoples looks and how they put things together.

  9. From one blogger to another, thank you for being bold enough to put yourself out there like that. It’s hard to put your whole life out for everyone to read and scrutinize, it takes a lot of courage. I really do wish you the best and hope to see you more around the blogging community!

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