Fast Foward from 2009 until 2017

Thoughts on Graduation:

 

Here we are arriving at graduation. I am not sure what to think or how to feel. I just spent the last three years of my life in school. I finally have a job to look forward to (that’s not retail). I finally have all that I hope to achieve in my adult life (a job, a place to live, some stable income).

I had hoped to have achieved this a long time ago. That never happened (life throwing’ ya lemons) I look back and reflect on the last three years. What lessons have I learned? Who do I need to thank? Who is that I became in the last three years?  Did I just become some schlep who went back to school because I couldn’t find a job with my art school degree? I keep asking myself these questions. I have been doing that all week. These things have been playing in my mind all week. In my attempt to write honestly, (and hopefully better)- I am sharing the answers.

 

  1. Who have I become in the last three years?

I think for me, I became someone that once again had to push hard. I speak true to myself and say, “Nothing Ever Comes Easy” (which why I have this tattooed to me). I am learning to be fiercely unapologetic to others. I have had to push out so much negative in my life. When it came to negativity about my skills, my career, my looks (all of it – and god damn those looks because that self-image thing is such a bitch). I learned to push beyond what others wanted. I had to know deep down what I wanted. (I’ve read all that bad-ass books on girl bossing and such). I knew that I wanted a job. I had to prove everyone wrong and show them I was serious. I had to take extra courses in writing to show I was committed to getting better and what I set forth to do (Marketing ahem!)  (and the writing thing I am still getting down).

I became more of my true authentic self I feel like. I started to understand that (I ramble a lot) I can use both sides of my brain to create my career. I had to realize no matter what anyone says, “I am enough” (even though majority of the time my brain doesn’t say it). That’s who I am- someone who had to push beyond the words “Never going to happen”. I once heard my friend Esther tell me the one thing I’ve always liked about you “You know who you are and You are grounded in that”.

That life is can be harder than you think. Life can throw a lot of crap your way, you just must roll with it (hell half the time I was crying at life).

 

  1. What lessons have I learned?

“Failure Isn’t an Option”- Corri Mcfadden

I ended up getting this quote tattooed to me; because it spoke to me so deeply. I knew when I started school I just had to find something better. I set out to study web design. That didn’t quite work out the way I had hoped. Marketing just kind of fell in my lap. My biggest fear in life is that I would end up not being able to make it in the world (and I’m hanging in there now) I knew that Failure couldn’t be an option for me I had just had to make this degree work for me. Hopefully it will.

“You are the most vital part of your creativity” –Melissa Camilleri

“YOU” is the key emphasis here. I learned that without me there was no fun creativity in blogging, school, social media whatever I choose. That “I” had to make this happen.

“When it comes to blogging FUCK all of the hate*

A few of my good blogger friends (Corri Mcfadden , Hallie Wilson, Janet Mandell,  Jennifer Worman, Natalie CraigCourtney Quinn  and Maya Mcdonaldall pushed me to come back to blogging and told me to Fuck what everyone else thinks. These ladies are some serious bad ass babes (I thank them for the words of encouragement!) Here I am trying that out again! (and ps, the people on Get Off My Internets thanks for saying some of the things you did, because I realized hey you took the time to come to my blog and read it and tell me I am fat and ugly and ps I’m still here)

“Be who God made you to be”– Dad

Dads have the best advice, don’t they? My dad has been the person that I have needed the most in the last few years. He was always there with words of advice and continues to be. God created me to be this way and I need to keep on doin’.

Who do I have to thank?

Friends- if you have someway come across with me at work, school or social media without your love and friendship-you mean the world to me. (I don’t just use that term loosely) I have always felt somewhat isolated from society so the few people I do have in my circle mean a lot.

Dad- I love you. You are the man I admire so much. You mean so much. I can’t emphasize this enough.

God- without the almighty Father the one that was there in the deep down when no one else saw the pain-You were the one. I cant and couldn’t keep going the way I was without you God. I love you.

I feel fortunate to have these experiences in the last three years. Thank you for taking some small time out to read this experience. I look forward to the future and whatever may happen and hopefully a new blog to write in the future.

 

 

With love

-Alex

It’s been a long, long night

The farther I go, the further you get away from who we really are
I choose a different route, a different path in life
Praised by many, yet still labeled an outcast

 

Hi there, you are probably wondering where I have been? Why did I decide to take almost a year break from my blog. I decided to step back out of the light for awhile to take a hard look at my blog. Was this blog something I wanted to continue ? Was this something that I felt i needed to do to be creative?  I honestly felt that after a year almost away I still am unsure that I want to keep going.

One of the main reasons I originally started i chased the blog for the wrong reasons. I just wanted to be famous- which totally was the wrong reason. I didn’t want to work hard. Once I initially got over that crap I started to work at this whole blog. After everything that was plastered all over Get Off My Internets. I cracked down on how i wrote, my blog , my photos. It still didn’t click though I still didn’t feel like i was doing this whole thing right. I deeply was ashamed of myself and my blog. I am only human.. I admit putting your life on the internet wasn’t the best idea.

I wasn’t being accepted by society already due to my size. I struggled being accepted by this blogging community. I’ve taken almost close to a year off. I still consider myself a blogger. I am still struggling to keep this going or not. While I was away I Started a couponing blog and I write a gaming blog as well. I kept those going for the fun of it. I just don’t know if style or my weird sense of fashion has a place in this world.

I wanted to originally write some sappy post, but that didn’t sound OK. I wanted to write a short post. I’ve been working on my writing slowly since I’ve been gone. I’ve been working on a lot of changes in my life. If you follow me on Instagram you know that i have gotten rid of tons of junk. I have had people pushing me to donate, recycle and sell crap. It’s been a therapeutic process for me. It has been good and the best experience of my life.

I don’t know honestly if I’m going to keep posting fashion in the real world. I might use this blog for just personal writing ,or what ever. I don’t know but this weekend I’m going to GBS again. I cant wait for a vacation and to clear my head.

Until maybe next time,

alexandria

It’s been a long, long night
and we’re still learning how to survive.
Will you walk with me awhile,
and see a world with brand new eyes?
We see the sights,
and we’re fighting for our lives.

 

 

Modern Day Thanksgiving

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I thought today I would take on a fun way to show a Modern Day Thanksgiving. I found a way to show Pilgrims and Native Americans! Let’s remember the first thanksgiving and those who came before us! Let’s celebrate Thanksgiving fashionably! There are so many great options for you to wear to your Thanksgiving dinner. ! Happy Tuesday

Alexandria

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I hate to break my tradition and goal here. I do feel like its time for a break. I need to break and re-group my process and thoughts regarding this blog. I need a week to decide where my focus is going to be . Since this whole wake up call i have had with this blog. I dont know where its headed. Let me re group, focus and ill brb.

SALE SALE SALE!!!!!

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Happy Labor Day! I am totally late with getting on the bandwagon with all the crazy end of summer sales. While your at the bbq in your shorts, pull out your smart phone and START SHOPPING!

-Clothing-

Aldo– take 10 off on orders of $100 or more.

Aeropostale– take 70% Sitewide

American Apparel– take 30 % of site wide (code BIGDEAL)

Anthropologie– 20% off select styles

ASOS- take 20% off all sale items

Barneys Warehouse – Up to 30% off clearance items

Bauble Bar- 50% off or more (select markdowns) – 20% off full price stuff.

Bergdorf Goodman – Up to 40% off select RTW items

BCBGeneration- 40% sitewide

Bloomingdales (Hello Designer Bags?) – take up to 60% off of brand new markdowns. (this weekend ONLY)

Club Monaco – extra 40% off sale items extra 50% off clearance items (Code HEYFALL)

Diane Von Furstenburg (DVF.com) – take 30% of new fall styles (this weekend only)

Express– Everything is 40% off

Forever 21– Buy one get one free on all sale items

Gap- Up to 40% off online and in stores.

H&M – Shop the Labor Day sale with prices starting at just 4.95 (this weekend only)

Kiarna Ziabete – Up to 75% of sale items

Last call Neiman Marcus- take an extra 25% of sitewide this weekend (only)

Loft– 50% off new fall styles 50% off all full priced items.

Jcrew– 40% on everything that’s final sale. Free shipping throughout labor day

Jcrew Factory Outlet– 40% to 60% off all items

Madwell- Take 20% off select dress and boots plus an extra 30% of sale (code YESYES) until Sept 2

Nasty Gal– 30%, 40% ,50 % on all items! #GIRLBOSS

Nordstrom- 40% of all sale

Old Navy– Up to 40% online and in stores.

The Outnet – up to 50% of M by Missoni Merchandise

Scoop NYC- extra 40% of sale items

Shopbop – up to 70% of select items

Topshop – 30% of select items

Tory Burch – up to 30% off site wide (with code LABORDAY14)

Trina Turk– extra 20% off sale items (till Sept 2)

 -Beauty-

Sephora – 75 % off summer items

Toofaced- up to 70% off toofaced cosmetics

 

Happy Labor Day Shopping ,- Overspend for me xx

 

alex

 

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Shirt: Thrifted

Old Navy Rockstars | Gray

Shoes: Dakota Basic Editions

Boss Necklace

Glasses : Vintage

Bracelets : All Thrifted

Happy Tuesday! (you survived Monday right?) Today is my first “Full” day of school. This is pretty much what i look on a normal school day. My Favorite Old Navy Jeans, a quirky t shirt, and my favorite Kmart shoes. Simplistic and cute! Have a HAPPY tuesday!

xx

Alex

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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You know all those hilarious T- shirts, that you see all over Pintrest & Tumblr. Well I’ve compiled by favorite ones here. More than recently i remember these T-shirts have become more popular this past year and in 2013. The rise of the funny cult shirts have become a sensation. I thought it might be fun to compile ones that are super funny.

 

Bitches Get Stuff Done | Go Fuck Your Seflie | Monday Is A Basic Bitch | No One Believes In Me | All I Care About Is Pizza And Like Two People| 97Cats | Plans with My Cat| Iowa Bitch| Npr Cool | Satan Made Me Do it | Thug Life | I watch netflix | Trillhouse | I have a date with netflix | To Be Or Not To Be | Home Isnt Where |

Snacking Obessions.

SnackObsessionsxSTYHLLately I’ve been on this kick, about snacking. Healthy Snacking, or Snacking in general, For along time ive kinda searched for snacks that are healthy and crunchy and fun.

 

First we have Snyders pretzels these are like the greatest little snack ever. my boyfriend turned me onto the pretzel. I wasn’t the hugest pretzel fan in the world. I thought they were so boring. I recently took a trip to target. I was recently looking in the snack isle and i came across Synders Pretzels. Snyders pretzel run about 3.00-4.00 a bag. They are very tasty. I was first turned onto the cheese type. I’m a huge fan of cheddar, but then recently i tried the ranch.. Hello taste buds. They are so tasty and good.. They kind of taste like a little pickle tasting at fist but the ranch is super good and Target has a deal right now (2 for 5.00 check local target stores for that deal).

Secondly we have the Harvest snaps. I tried this snack about a year ago, from a former co-worker. I really enjoyed the flavor. I have tried a lot of the flavors that they offer. I recently picked up the tomato basil. The Cesar flavor its my favorite! First in Iowa (Des Moines) they were hard to find. My local Hy-vee finally had them. I was so stoked, but a recent trip to target i picked up a bag. There’s not very many in a bag, but they are SO delicious. They don’t really taste like peas, but they are cesar flavored. They run about 3.00-4.00 a bag too. They are so worth it.

Thridly we have the Pop Chip, I willingly admitted have never tried the pop chips. I recently won a contest with Chicago Bloggers Network for a twitter party. I won a whole case of pop chips! There are so many flavors to love. The first flavor I fell in love with , was the sweet potato, who knew that one could love sweet potatoes so much in a chip? They also have many other great flavors. The barbeque is the best too. The chips have no fake colors, no fake flavors, no preservatives, no fluorescent orange fingertips! They are healthy and flavorful and a better crunchy treat. Check out pop chips today!

Synders of Hanover | Harvest Snaps | Pop Chips

*all opinions are my own. i was not compensated for this post.

Jewelry Hoarding 101

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Well as you guessed it, you know what this post is about, its just about for the love of jewelry. I have been collecting jewelry for as long as i can remember. I love vintage brooches, pins and a lot of other items i usually find interesting. I like knowing that this jewelry was someone else jewelry before hand.  My favorite Piece (although not pictured here but below is a picture of me wearing it) is my vintage peacock necklace i bought when i visited New York City (what a trip that was i wont ever forget crying in a Chanel store or singing the 5th avenue song by Fred Estaire on 5th Avenue)

Lately, I have been feeling overwhelmed with the amount i have, don’t get me wrong i love to wake up and Have my choices on what i can wear and my jewelery is NEVER boring (You can ask the Claire’s associates, I’m always in there picking up jewelry.)  I really wanted a better storage for my bulky jewelery most of my jewelry is Hung on bulletin boards i purchased from salvation army. Its somewhat difficult to keep up with that much stuff, (yes hi i need a hoarding show) so i finally bought one of those super expensive tall jewelry stands (thanks to a local consignment store called Stuff Etc i picked up one for 53.00) I got this awesome jewelry holder for all my precious jewels that i love so much. its got pull out drawers and locks so no one can touch my jewelry. Below i have listed some good options for you if you are/and or have Way to much jewelry. Like i said, my favorite things to do are look at estate sales, antique shops and goodwill , salvation army for vintage or used jewelery because i get all my best finds from those (aka look above and see the miss piggy and Donald duck pins i found)

Initial Letter “Necklace Hanger ”  -Clarie’s | Merlot Large Jewelry Armoire – Jcpenny- | Jewelry Distressed Oak – Walmart |   Jewelery Armoire – Amazon

(those are a few options for you for storage for your Jewelry.  If you get lucky search Craig’s List  too, i have seen a few on there as well.  Or if you are like me you can DIY your own earring boards (all you need is foam, and fabric and presto, a earring board)

i hope you all had a fun read on this,

 

Thank you

Alexandria

The charm of Spring

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Spring is finally here! I’ve been really feeling  inspired by Dinah Shores “April In Paris”. This weather is really wonderful, welcome spring.

I never knew the charm of spring,
I never met it face to face,
I never new my heart could sing,
I never missed a warm embrace.

April’s in the air
but here in Paris
April wears a different gown
You can see her waltzing down
the street.

Dress: Vintage (Similar Style Here and Here ) | Pants: Thrifted (Similar Here) | Necklace: Beaded Flower Collar Necklace | Purse : Vintage Deer Skin Bag (Similar Here) | Shoes: Old Navy | Headband Made by Me(tutorials here)