I never thought in my lifetime, I’d be where i am right now. I never thought i’d be working full time and going to school for the second time around. My dad and i recently had this conversation, that went like this : Alex : I don’t understand why God puts in situations then yanks us our of them? Dad: that’s a hard one to answer. This weekend has been an emotional roller-coaster for me, on Friday i received a call letting me know that my temp-to-hire job had been terminated leaving me with out a job at all. ( Minus my part time job). I have no reasons why and neither does the agency i am currently with. My guess is that i was performing slower than everyone else. I just told them everyone learns differently and i have A.D.D. and its really hard for me to focus and function too.
You maybe asking yourself i thought this was a fashion blog? not where she just writes whatever, well this has been on my mind for awhile what do i tap into, and i had a lot of major feedback from my #RealBloggerBeauty Post, that everyone saw me, Alex real and raw. Well I’m going to get even open. I never thought I’d be calling on Monday to talk to the Department of Human Services people again to ask if i can get more money for food stamps. I am the only person working in my household while i go to school. I am in credit card and student loan debt that im working hard to pay off. You might be asking well how the hell do you have a Louis Vuitton bag if you are on food stamps? Its called (using resources) my Alma Louis Vuitton bag was purchased off of Craigslist, yes you heard me right Craig List. When i lived in davenport, i used to follow E-Drop Off Religiously. I mean RELIGIOUSLY. (if you don’t know what it is click that link). When i started blogging i used to look at people like The Bag Snob, Sussie Bubble, Corals and Cognacs, you name them i read them. I kept thinking why cant i own Designer handbags, i mean i remember that one time ( i bought 2 totally fake Gucci bags from E bay with the sellers convincing me for real, that’s when i did my homework ,and i got so GOOD at spotting fake bags very easily plus there’s awesome resource tutorials out there i figure why are you ever gonna spend that amount with actually KNOWING the difference and honey i don’t carry FAKE) When i bought my LV Alma (which you can see it here on the LV Site) This bag is $1996.00. Now don’t get me wrong, if i had that kinda money and everything was all paid off i would buy it. I graciously paid $286.00 for my alama. You’re probably asking your from Iowa? how do you know anything about Louis Vuitton don’t you live in a corn field? Well its called The Purse forum , the lady i purchased it from bought from a consignment store and i then had it authenticated before i bought it by experts. I feel as I’m pretty smart when it comes to using the resources i have for luxury fashion. Granted how many coach bags you see in Iowa, i wanted to stand out above that (don’t get me wrong Coach is awesome but so many people in Iowa that’s all they know they don’t know Alexander Wang, Celine, Peter Pilato, The Row, or even what a Barney’s is (no and I’m not talking the dinosaur) ).
At this point after reading this you’re asking what is the point you are making you sound poor broke and desperate. Well I’m two out of those three, I may not have a lot of income right now. I chose to go to school for photography which didn’t really lead me in a career i wanted to see myself in. I’m wrestling and fighting in school now to make sure what I’m studying will make me a decent job of what i can be happy at. At this point ever since 2011 i have heard of things like Food Stamps. I think I’ve always known that there was a thing called Food Stamps. Its a program in which the government provides money for people who aren’t making a lot income. More and more families are on it every day of there lives, myself included. Now your asking Alex, your on food stamps and you own Louis Vuitton , and you bought something form Louis Vuitton. Yes sadly I’m in 3400.00 of credit card debt, which I’ve accumulated for awhile and working really hard to pay that off every month. I have really good credit, but i cant just find enough work or a good full time job that can help me pay that off faster. It’s my responsibility, and (yet i think Kim Kardashian spends that in like what a day or a week?). Right now my dad says you cant control how your life is being lived or how or what happens to you that’s in God’s hands not yours. Thankfully, right now since i lost my job i have parents that can help but i realized that cant last forever can it?
I never thought at twenty-seven id be living pay check to pay check , trying to pay bills and without a full time job trying to figure out what am i good at? What is that makes me happy (besides instagramming all the jewelry i own @styledintheheartland) I cant ask people for help, i have to do this on my own. Yes, i know i own LV yes (i have thought of selling that bag but it means a lot to me) i realized when i wrote the #realbloggerbeauty story, that this is where it lies for me being 100% open about my life, i have no choice but to go to the government (even though some would rather be like eh you’re a sponge you just want government food stamps to work the system) but i look at it as “How very fortunate are we to live here in America and gain the help of our government”. Its been a roller coaster of a weekend trying to figure out where I want to go what I want to do? I just applied to a job in Los Angeles maybe ill get who knows? But i thought id share more of the realest part of me i know.