Liesbster Award

LIEBSTER AWARD

I want to thank Juliet for nominating me,  you can check out her awesome blog at Juliets Threads

11 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

1- I love metal music, I love going to shows. Some of my favorite bands are: Vanna, Sworn In, Corpus Christi, and Gwen Stacy
2- I love old movies. One of my favorite is Camille with Greta Garbo
3- I have 11 tattoos, my nose double pierced and my septum pierced
4- I have a bachelors degree in Fine Art Photography. I am currently in school for a marketing degree and web design degree
5- I’m left handed
6- I own two Louis Vuitton Bags. Both of them were purchased from a consignment store. (And yes they are real)
7- I still watch cartoons. (My favorites are Arthur, Pepper Ann, Doug, and I love Disney)
8- I’m obsessed with DIY’s. My pinterest board is full of them
9- I own a massive amount of jewelry. I cant help it I Love jewelry.
10-  Ive been plus size all my life. I really dream of having weight loss surgery. or plastic surgery to get rid of my fat.
11-We don’t celebrate Christmas in my family the traditional way of giving gifts. We just hang around with each other.

 

MY ANSWERS
1- What is the main goal for your blog? Meet friends, create a business? Well at first my main goal was to be all omg I am a famous blogger. Now? Its just because I honestly have fun getting dressed up for my blog. Creating all my content and just simply doing.

2- If you had to chose one year to be your favorite, what would it be? 2012 –I lost over 60lbs. I was a workout magnet; I also lost my job gained a lot of weight back. But I loved everyone moment even the days I hated myself.
3- What is your go to nail color? Grey. I love OPI’s grey. Or Essie’s grey colors. Most of my nail polish is from the dollar store. It was only certain colors I couldn’t find so I had to go to get them from Sephora. (which at the time Iowa had no Sephora so when I lived in Chicago I was always at Sephora)
4- Sandals, flats, or boots? Um, Heels! I love Heels, but if I have to pick defiantly boots.
5- What are your all time and current favorite movies?  I have seriously to many to list.. well here it goes: Fathers Day, Schindler’s List, Camille, Love Finds Andy Hardy, Meet Me In St Louis, The Great Muppet Caper. I love Musicals too. I love the musical State Fair.
6- What is your favorite season and why? Fall. I am OBSESSED with chunky sweaters, leggings, ridding boots. I love pumpkin everything (seriously. I am a HUGE fan of Halloween).

7- Favorite actor and actress? Actor-Judy Garland, Greta Garbo, Lucille Ball. – I love the classic ladies of the golden age of film.
8- What is your most worn scent? Change By Chanel , and Irresistible from Givenchy
9- It’s a cold Monday morning, what outfit do you pull from your closet? Well if I have to work, Jeans and my work tshirt. If I don’t, a chunk cute sweater, leggings, and my favorite flats, with my rings and favorite bracelets.
10- What song do you currently have on replay? Starving For Friends (Ft. Vic Fuentes) by Slaves. – Slaves is one my new obsession because Jonny Craig is the lead singer and his new band is amazing.
11- Where do you see yourself within the next 5 years? Hopefully a successful style blogger, and working full time as a Social media and PR marketing for a company living in New york or Chicago.

 

THE RULES:

-Thank the blogger that nominated you, link in the post.
-Write 11 random facts about yourself!
-Answer the questions they set you..

-Set 11 questions for your nominees, your own or from the previous blogger.
– And nominate 11 bloggers, or less if you really have to!

MY NOMINEES

 

Rachel from Suburban Style Challenge

Katelyn from Katalina girl

Maya from Charmingly Styled

Lauren from La Petite Fashionista

Troy from The Thriftinista in the City

Ash from The Stylized Wannabe

Dana from the Possesionista

Chelsea from Little Lessons in a Big City

Jenna from Chi City Fashion

Nicole from Cedar and Rush

Libby from the Stylin Iowan

Ivy from Wakeup for Makeup

 

MY QUESTIONS FOR YOU:

 

-What is the main goal for your blog? Meet friends, create a business?
– If you had to choose only one store you could shop at, what would it be?

– What is your favorite color to wear?

– Sandals, flats, heels or boots?

– What are your all time and current favorite movies?

– What is your favorite season of the year and why?

– Favorite actor and actress?

– What is your most worn scent?

– It’s a cold Monday morning, what outfit do you pull from your closet?

– What song do you currently have on replay?

– Where do you see yourself within the next 5 years?

Speaking Out.

 

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Depression isn’t about, ‘Woe is me, my life is this, that and the other’, it’s like having the worst flu all day that you just can’t kick.

~Robbie Williams
With all the buzz about Robin Williams death, the biggest subject has come up a lot in social media. I feel as it is my duty in this blog to not ignore talking about what millions of Americans suffer from. Depression. Let me go for a minute and talk about my own personal journey with depression.
Ever since i was eight years old i have seen a physiologist.  My mother passed away when i was eight years old. It was under the good sense my dad brought me to a child psychologist.  When i was in high school, depression hit me bad. I was always sleeping, i didn’t have very many connections to the world on the outside. I started seeing a psychologist on a weekly basis. I took Welliburtin XL . When i moved away to college i stopped seeing the therapist. After college i graduated, i was at home for six months undergoing surgery i played second life all the time. The people in the game made me depressed. I spent most of my time in therapy.  I moved away to Chicago and then after two years came back to Iowa. I lost a lot of weight, i went through 6 months of unemployment. Those were some of the darkest times in my life. I had even called the national suicide hotline. I felt worthless. I felt pointless.. I moved away up and till now, i am currently in the process of going to seek help once again. For all my adult life, i have felt i never can connect to anyone. I feel always alone and that no on relates to me.  I once told a friend that depression, when you are diagnosed with it. It doesn’t leave you, it’s always there. Its like the roller coaster you can’t get off. Some might think we are suburbanites folded to the pressure of American society. For me, its genetic in my family. My family has a high suicide rate. My great uncle killed himself. My own father has dealt a lot in his life with depression. I see in it a lot of my other family members.  I was recently reading a post about Robin and his problems. A lot of people, have said that “Oh well we didn’t know Robin but that’s terrible to what he did how selfish”. I look at suicide two ways. To your love ones, yes it is very selfish,. Taking away your life to someone you love. I have personally lost two wonderful people in my own life due to suicide. I can vouch for the pain that lays in that. I had a friend in college that committed suicide. I cant ever forget the moment i told her, “hey lets hang out again” and we never got that chance.  The other way to look at it, is in my own depressive mindset, i can think of it as the only way out. Now i am not condoning suicide in anyways. I am just trying to help you understand from my own mind how i saw it.  For me I’d rather sleep away and not deal with my issues.  I would rather just forget about money problems, issues going on at work or school. Depression is not something you ever joke about.
I have a lot of friends who don’t really believe in therapy or help. Some people say you need a swift kick in the ass. I always have believe in the power of therapy. I only can wondering in Robin’s last thoughts, will America miss me? Twice as many people die every year of suicide in America. If you are sitting here reading this post, and your thinking please this is bullshit. I honestly urge you to those around, you if they are depressed don’t let them go. For myself i had issues with my own relationship with my partner, my other parts of my life. I found myself doing things i shouldn’t do. I tend to shop a lot to deal with my depression (yes we have seen this) but i am in therapy now and getting the help i needed. I am a firm believer in the power of therapy.
What also has helped me is my faith in God. i have always been religious, even though i have been so broke i couldn’t afford to drive to church on Sundays. I am still a factor in my life is my saving grace is my faith in Jesus Christ. I firmly believe that for me, its what saved me.  Sometimes i feel like i cant ever escape things of this world, bills, problems, the feeling of total isolation. I know that my faith has a lot to do with it.
I also urge if you are reading and need to seek help. Please don’t hesitate to talk to a parent, a friend, someone you trust. If you are feeling suicidal please call the national suicide hotline.
I really hope that this has helped you to understand why i chose to speak out and up about depression and Robin Williams. Depression is something you can not ignore. I hope you feel blessed today and know you are loved.
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Styled in The Heartland Goes To The Fair

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As you can tell i had a great time at the Iowa State Fair! The fair ended yesterday. I had a LOAD of fun. I really enjoy getting out to see different parts of my state. I complied all my photos from the fair in a slide show. I hope you enjoy. This next few weeks i wont be posting images of clothing, (my camera remote broke). I wont receive my new one for a few weeks! Heres more of my pictures to enjoy from the Iowa State Fair.  Whats your favorite activity to do at the fair? has tag #FAIRQUEEN2014 and tell me!

 

 


I Miss The Days of Being On Fire.

MotivationIt’s funny that the summer is almost over. I had been thinking about it being summer, and how this summer what have i accomplished? I can’t really say that i have a don a ton of things. I haven’t gone anywhere. I hardly yardsled or thrifed. I’ve been trying to save my money. I however have been recently struggling with my blog. I really am trying to keep going with it. I recently told a blogging friend that i cant find a community that styled in the heartland belongs into. I post my outfits, i do my thing. Mostly my outfits are thrown together in seconds because my mind thinks fast. I have had other friends tell me your blog is terrible You cant write properly. It has made me feel like this is such a discouragement to me.   I however, told myself this summer your gonna post everyday for 1 month. Monday – Friday. I started that back in july. What happen is that my blog became infested with malaware. It totally ruined my plans of posting every week. I became lazy and not focused.

Sometimes we all need motivation. Kinda like exercising? I think lately what has been driving me, it feels natural when i step in front of that camera. It has been long in my history of photographing myself. i feel at home. I really lately have enjoyed photographing myself. I have also been really influencing and watching documentaries on Bands like Nirvana, The Sex Pistols, and many other various people. I find myself just thinking about my blog, that i started this thing to be famous and popular> (i still can dream?). I fully realize that it wont be like that now. I just enjoy having my creative little space that i can do what i want.

When i work, i am a rather shy person. I want to take my photos and write the way i see things. I have made a promise to myself, to just keep going. Forget what you originally wanted. Don’t keep thinking this or this will happen. Just keep going. Build on what you like to do. I kinda of guess that’s kind of how i feel about life lately. Stop listening to everyone else. Just do who you are. Stop having these pre-concieved notions of being famous for a blog. I am thinking that despite trying to achieve success. I am just going to keep thrifting and being true to owning that. I struggle with no one reading this blog. I struggle with people being super critical of my writing. I struggle with everyone thinking this is a big joke.

I think for me,  the term “Blog Like A Motherfucker” is a relative term. It is more for me to stay motivated. It is just a thing, you know motivation. It’s to work hard. To just keep taking photos for me. I think maybe I’ll find a community or a place I’ll fit in with my blog. I just am making you a promise in this post, to just keep doing this. I promise trying not to be lazy even during school and keep going. #BLOGLIKEAMOTHERFUCKER.

 

 

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I sat tonight, trying to think what i was going to write about? I didnt have any outfits provided to write about. I have been feeling lackluster on my blog lately. Ever since my server went down i havent had time to shoot new clothing. I thought i would provide you with cartoon women whom i love.  Yes i am 27 and i still watch cartoons. Here are reasons why i like them

Daria- Tells it like it is. Uses sarcasm,. I used to believe that i was her, and jane both.

Miss Frizzle, always known for her clothes. Why identify with her so much.

DW- So Much Sass for a 4 year old.

Lisa Simpson- Smart and she wasn’t afraid to be who she was.

Pepperann, (she was my favorite since i was like 14) i love her. She does her own thing.

Ginger- I love Ginger. She was sensitive and creative.

Patty Mayonnaise – She was so in love with Dough. She had a sweet feminine side.

Eliza – She always followed her heart. She talked to a monkey all the time. Her sister was wacko.

 

I know this isn’t my typical blog post. I was just sharing things i really like!

 

Enjoy .

 

 

Snacking Obessions.

SnackObsessionsxSTYHLLately I’ve been on this kick, about snacking. Healthy Snacking, or Snacking in general, For along time ive kinda searched for snacks that are healthy and crunchy and fun.

 

First we have Snyders pretzels these are like the greatest little snack ever. my boyfriend turned me onto the pretzel. I wasn’t the hugest pretzel fan in the world. I thought they were so boring. I recently took a trip to target. I was recently looking in the snack isle and i came across Synders Pretzels. Snyders pretzel run about 3.00-4.00 a bag. They are very tasty. I was first turned onto the cheese type. I’m a huge fan of cheddar, but then recently i tried the ranch.. Hello taste buds. They are so tasty and good.. They kind of taste like a little pickle tasting at fist but the ranch is super good and Target has a deal right now (2 for 5.00 check local target stores for that deal).

Secondly we have the Harvest snaps. I tried this snack about a year ago, from a former co-worker. I really enjoyed the flavor. I have tried a lot of the flavors that they offer. I recently picked up the tomato basil. The Cesar flavor its my favorite! First in Iowa (Des Moines) they were hard to find. My local Hy-vee finally had them. I was so stoked, but a recent trip to target i picked up a bag. There’s not very many in a bag, but they are SO delicious. They don’t really taste like peas, but they are cesar flavored. They run about 3.00-4.00 a bag too. They are so worth it.

Thridly we have the Pop Chip, I willingly admitted have never tried the pop chips. I recently won a contest with Chicago Bloggers Network for a twitter party. I won a whole case of pop chips! There are so many flavors to love. The first flavor I fell in love with , was the sweet potato, who knew that one could love sweet potatoes so much in a chip? They also have many other great flavors. The barbeque is the best too. The chips have no fake colors, no fake flavors, no preservatives, no fluorescent orange fingertips! They are healthy and flavorful and a better crunchy treat. Check out pop chips today!

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*all opinions are my own. i was not compensated for this post.

Louis Vuitton and Govermental Funding.

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I never thought in my lifetime, I’d be where i am right now. I never thought i’d be working full time and going to school for the second time around. My dad and i recently had this conversation, that went like this : Alex : I don’t understand why God puts in situations then yanks us our of them? Dad: that’s a hard one to answer.  This weekend has been an emotional roller-coaster for me, on Friday i received a call letting me know that my temp-to-hire job had been terminated leaving me with out a job at all. ( Minus my part time job). I have no reasons why and neither does the agency i am currently with. My guess is that i was performing slower than everyone else. I just told them everyone learns differently and i have A.D.D. and its really hard for me to focus and function too.

You maybe asking yourself i thought this was a fashion blog? not where she just writes whatever, well this has been on my mind for awhile what do i tap into, and i had a lot of major feedback from my #RealBloggerBeauty Post, that everyone saw me, Alex real and raw. Well I’m going to get even open. I never thought I’d be calling on Monday to talk to the Department of Human Services people again to ask if i can get more money for food stamps. I am the only person working in my household while i go to school. I am in credit card and student loan debt that im working hard to pay off. You might be asking well how the hell do you have a Louis Vuitton bag if you are on food stamps? Its called (using resources) my Alma Louis Vuitton bag was purchased off of Craigslist, yes you heard me right Craig List. When i lived in davenport, i used to follow E-Drop Off Religiously. I mean RELIGIOUSLY. (if you don’t know what it is click that link). When i started blogging i used to look at people like The Bag Snob, Sussie Bubble, Corals and Cognacs, you name them i read them. I kept thinking why cant i own Designer handbags, i mean i remember that one time ( i bought 2 totally fake Gucci bags from E bay with the sellers convincing me for real, that’s when i did my homework ,and i got so GOOD at spotting fake bags very easily plus there’s awesome resource tutorials out there i figure why are you ever gonna spend that amount with actually KNOWING the difference and honey i don’t carry FAKE) When i bought my LV Alma (which you can see it here on the LV Site) This bag is $1996.00. Now don’t get me wrong, if i had that kinda money and everything was all paid off i would buy it. I graciously paid $286.00 for my alama. You’re probably asking your from Iowa? how do you know anything about Louis Vuitton don’t you live in a corn field? Well its called The Purse forum , the lady i purchased it from bought from a consignment store and i then had it authenticated before i bought it by experts. I feel as I’m pretty smart when it comes to using the resources i have for luxury fashion. Granted how many coach bags you see in Iowa, i wanted to stand out above that (don’t get me wrong Coach is awesome but so many people in Iowa that’s all they know they don’t know Alexander Wang, Celine, Peter Pilato, The Row, or even what a Barney’s is (no and I’m not talking the dinosaur) ).

At this point after reading this you’re asking what is the point you are making you sound poor broke and desperate. Well I’m two out of those three, I may not have a lot of income right now.  I chose to go to school for photography which didn’t really lead me in a career i wanted to see myself in. I’m  wrestling and fighting in school now to make sure what I’m studying will make me a decent job of what i can be happy at. At this point ever since 2011 i have heard of things like Food Stamps. I think I’ve always known that there was a thing called Food Stamps. Its a program in which the government provides money for people who aren’t making a lot income. More and more families are on it every day of there lives, myself included. Now your asking Alex, your on food stamps and you own Louis Vuitton , and you bought something form Louis Vuitton. Yes sadly I’m in 3400.00 of credit card debt, which I’ve accumulated for awhile and working really hard to pay that off every month. I have really good credit, but i cant just find enough work or a good full time job that can help me pay that off faster. It’s my responsibility, and (yet i think Kim Kardashian spends that in like what a day or a week?). Right now my dad says you cant control how your life is being lived or how or what happens to you that’s in God’s hands not yours. Thankfully, right now since i lost my job i have parents that can help but i realized that cant last forever can it?

I never thought at twenty-seven id be living pay check to pay check , trying to pay bills and without a full time job trying to figure out what am i good at? What is that makes me happy (besides instagramming all the jewelry i own @styledintheheartland) I cant ask people for help, i have to do this on my own. Yes, i know i own LV yes (i have  thought of selling that bag but it means a lot to me) i realized when i wrote the #realbloggerbeauty story, that this is where it lies for me being 100% open about my life, i have no choice but to go to the government (even though some would rather be like eh you’re a sponge you just want government food stamps to work the system) but i look at it as “How very fortunate are we to live here in America and gain the help of our government”. Its been a roller coaster of a weekend trying to figure out where I want to go what I want to do? I just applied to a job in Los Angeles maybe ill get who knows? But i thought id share more of the realest part of me i know.

 

thank you,

 

Alex

 

This is where its gets, raw and real.

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I’ve been taking a summer break from styled in the heartland, a lot has changed and happened since i went off to Go Blog Social, (which i learned a lot) I was hoping to have my blog re-done and changed but its just not in my current budget to do so. I am out of school finally, and I’m at a brand new job which i have very little time to actually blog but im going to try to when i can.. I don’t want to go into all those mixed emotions i have about blogging and just not feeling part of a group or that i just suck at coming up with titles or styles that people are into but myself.

Today my dear friend Maya from Charmingly Styled is leading a campaign called #RealBloggerBeauty. I want to share my story, i felt compelled to do so as other ladies have shared there stories and some of them are amazing. Well lets see where do i begin with me?

 

I’d say it was about sometime when i was in elementary school i weighed about probably what most girls weigh now in the 120-140 range. I knew that when i got to junior high and high school i was gonna be bigger and i was. i was plus sized in jr and high school, and i guess that’s where my love of thrift stores started. I couldn’t find clothes that never would ever fit me and i had to start shopping there because i always found things i loved. I really wanted to write a book called “skinny issues”.  The book was to talk about issues, i suffered from being a bigger girl. It really sucked for me in high school, guys weren’t interested in someone that was bigger, they just looked at me and said “Absolutely not”. It was hard not having a mother in my life ,to tell me that guys don’t matter its your self that matters. I suffered mostly in my high school years though depression, anxiety and suicide attempts (a lot of that i would later learn that it is ramped in my family and generational). I still hated my body. I remember i made this t shirt in high school that said “I’m glad I’m fat so then guys wont use me”. I made it as a joke but people were more or less impressed. I still thought maybe people would get a joke out of it, but yet i was still hating my body.

 

Skip to college i suffered a lot of the same issues, (and second life entered my life here and you can learn about that from my previous GBS Post). When i went away to art school i thought “Ive found my people”. People like me artsy, and i got the hell out of Iowa. Yet throughout my college years i experienced the same things as high school and Jr high. I was the only one who hadn’t really dated anyone my first boyfriends (3) were met on the internet and i never have met them even though one of them and i still pretty awesome friends.  I remember my sophomore year of college did this photography project called “Campus Girls. The Girls of Iowa was a sexy calender where college girls from U of I and some of them i actually knew. I actually shot my self in sexy lingerie and pasted my self into beaches , to talk about how beauty is very skin deep and it was very scandalous and sexual, and my teacher thought it was brilliant and gave me A+ for it (that critique was heated). I struggled throughout college trying to love and accept myself. Trying to understand why i was single, why guys looked me and thought i was ugly. I hated myself deeply (which is a little bit why i played second life so much because i got to be a beautiful girl no one thought was fat or ugly). Believe me when i say ive heard it all, i have, i have heard “Fat Ass, Ugly as Fuck, Attention Whore, Basket Case, Crazy, Shit faced ugly, Obese, Big Girl, Thunder Thighs, Fucking Ugly as Shit. You name I’ve been called it. It never really came to my attention till my senior year of college where i really started to explore my self and inner loneliness in depth in my thesis called “Dwelling single” which was really a study of why I’m always alone ,or i feel so very alone all the time. The funny thing is i remember my senior year, i totally identified with a porn star called “Erik Rhodes (he once dated marc jacobs ) and he was addicted to heroin but some of the things he was saying about how he felt, i felt the exact same way. (his current blog is here)

“Everyone’s looking, everyone hides
Everyone’s telling everyone lies
We’re changing the subject, we’re turning away
Away from the heart of it all

You say you are happy, do you think this is fun?
Well, it’s only a firefly to the light of the sun
You say this is living, you feel so alive
Well, you know everything dies”

After i graduated college i spent a good 6 years (until now still hating my body). Skip to the time i lived in Chicago (which  i miss EVERYTHING about that). i was so poor i didn’t have two dimes to rub together and my parents kept supporting me. I tried everything there to find a boyfriend, but i heard it all “Your Fat , Your Ugly gross”. I used to walk up and down oak street and look at the expensive things in Prada and Hermes , thinking i wish i could fit that, but (the funny thing is finding amazing clothes was never a problem because i just wore things no one else was wearing and everyone else thought was weird thanks to the village outlet) I was gonna throw myself out there to anyone who wanted me, i was so desperate for someone to accept me and love me. I did finally date someone, but it didn’t last because they had trust issues and were in a bad financial situation. I still hated my body i was 280 pound thinking God, why did you make me this fat, all my friends are so skinny and can fit ANYTHING and I’m struggling to find a good job , (i even remember i tried to be a adult dancer because i had no where else to turn and even i tried being a sugar baby i had NO where else to turn) Fast forward to when i moved back to Davenport Iowa, (i cried all the way home out of Chicago).

The first year in davenport, i struggled with depression and intense loneliness and i felt isolated from everything and everyone, (even i was playing Second Life i felt exactly the same way) but i learn that i was OK with that, I had a random hook up with a guy i met through craigs list (worst mistake ever). I had been on so many sugar baby| Daddy websites trying to get someone to love me and accept me for who i was. I idolized people like Corri McFadden and her staff because they were all these pretty rich and hard working and skinny girls who i wanted to be . I had one sugar daddy that liked me who sent me like 40.00 and after that i felt deep inside, i had to loose some weight its not healthy and then came the greatest time 9months of my life, i lost 60lbs. I couldn’t Tell you that time in my life was more freeing than anything. i felt so empowered. everyone came out of the woodwork’s to support me and saw me change and i felt strong and powerful. I then shortly after 2012 i lost my job. I got a job but it was a job i was terrible at i didn’t belong at and i hated.  I was sent into nearly almost a year of serious depression and weight gained. ( ive probably gained about 20lbs back). Enter 2013: I decided towards the end of 2013 i was going to get out of davenport. I hated it there. need a changed. I moved to Ankney and started writing styled in the heartland and got in school full time. I met someone my boyfriend Humberto, (who told me i was super beautiful)  which incidentally we knew of each other in Chicago. Since I’ve been in central Iowa ive idolized my fellow bloggers (Kaitlyn and Samantha they are hard working girls and are so beautiful and everything i am not). Ive been wrestling a lot latley with my weight , and if i should keep going with my blog, i told Jenna from Chi City Fashion i hate being labeled as plus size, no one is into what I’m into. She told me just to go with what you know.

Since this summer, I’ve been still deeply hating who i am. I hate what i see when i look at myself. I try to tell myself God Loves me For who i am, i have friends and family that really like me. Those obsessive compulsive thoughts JUST don’t even go away. Even at go blog social i kept thinking GOD I’m like the fattest girl here.. I really want to have plastic surgery to get rid of my ugly body. I just honestly want to be skinny and cute i just hate the way i look. I try to love myself (i know how can i love someone when i cant love me) but i have my good days and bad days and im a lot healthier than i was 3 years ago. I never set out to write tonight this but i try to remember God never Made NO JUNK. I need to learn to love myself, and accept and try to think Im still functioning and i do have people in my life that love me.

-with that,ill end my story of #realbloggerbeauty.

-alex

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Lets Clutch It.

 

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Once again here i am writing about glorious spring again (can’t you see I’ve broken out the sun glasses.) Today i am going will be talking about something i adore clutches! I have been a huge fan of the little purse ever since college. I started collecting vintage clutches from thrift shops and antique shops. I really do love vintage bags. I’ve been fawning over some clutches recently. I was lucky enough to get to sit down with a company who i adore. I saw a few of the bags on the website. I immediately had to email and chat with Ashlyn’d clutches . I had to have of course fun in my photo shoot today showing you just how many clutches i actually own (the red one is a vintage Furla and I’m obsessed with it) Here’s my chit-chat with Ashlee the designer behind Ashlyn’d Clutches

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STIHL: What do you offer over other clutches …what makes yours special?

Ashlynd: Ashlyn’d clutches are very unique. We love the idea of turning something entirely unexpected into a purse. Our bags truly are conversation starters. I think affordability and quality really separate us in the marketplace. We also focus on functionality. Our clutches are made to fit a lot of stuff where many other evening bags barely fit a phone!

STIHL: Who are the primary designers of the clutches? What is your background and history?

Ashlyn’d: My name is Ashlee Nik, I am the designer and founder of ashlyn’d. I was born and raised in Los Angeles where I acquired a love for fashion at an early age watching my mother design belts and handbags. I attended business school as I thought I would pursue a career in finance but could not seem to squash my creative yearning. I then decided to go to fashion school where I studied product development and design. I worked in the fashion industry for several years doing design and product development as well as visual merchandising for companies such as JBrand and Alice + Olivia.

I launched ashlyn’d alongside my mother, Denise Lewinstein, in January of 2013. We wanted to explore the idea of making bags that were entirely unexpected. The concept of creating clutches that looked like marble, granite, wood etc. seemed to inspire the “nature themed” collection. In order to achieve this look, we use acrylics and exotic woods with custom finishes. During the development process, I came up with the idea to create an acrylic bag filled with sand that floats to give a “snow-globe” effect. This developed into a full line of bags with various fillers like pearls, chains, etc. While constructing the bags, it was very important to us that the bags could fit everything a girl may need; a mirror to touch up her makeup, enough room to fit all of the necessities (a phone, lipstick, credit card and ID, and much more!). It was also very important to us that the clutches be priced reasonably so that they would be attainable to the average consumer. Most importantly, we always had a fond appreciation for quality goods that were hand crafted as opposed to having a machine-made assembly line produce our bags. In an attempt to help bring manufacturing back to the United States and maintain quality control, my mother and I chose to work with Los Angeles based artists to construct our clutches.

I was on a search for evening bags and felt the market was lacking something that was truly different but at the same time moderately priced. I spoke with my mother about the idea of creating a bag that looked as though it was made out of a material that was completely unexpected, like marble. This idea ended up emerging into a full collection which my mother, Denise Lewinstein, and I now run. It truly started more as a shopping experience and ended up as a business.

 

STYHL : What is your design aesthetic? What inspires the clutches?

Ashlyn’d: My desire to bring affordable luxury to a consumer that loves fashion and is not scared to take a risk, certainly influences my brand. Of course, when I am designing I take into account not only what I love and would want to carry, but what I think my friends might love as well. When my mother and my best friend are both fighting over the same bag, I know I have a winner

I take a lot of influence from nature. I am always looking at different types and colors of marbles, shells, pearls, rocks etc.  We have several bags that are made out of wood and I get a lot of inspiration for the finishes from furniture. My father having run one of the largest furniture businesses for 45 years, has allowed him to acquire some of the most beautifully finished antique furniture.

 

STYHL: What’s the future hold for  Ashlyn’d?

Ashlyn’d: We just launched a few leather styles and we will continue to develop more bags in different materials other than woods and acrylics. We also have some fun exiting collaborations coming up for some other types of accessories which we cannot wait to share with you soon!As you can totally see they are the cutest company don’t you think? Such sweet people to work with.

 

I enjoyed getting to know the company better. Plus i am still drooling over the teddy clutch and the chalkboard clutch. I hope that you enjoyed my chit chat with Ashlynd, head over to the website and pick out some pretty clutches for yourself. You’ll be pretty happy you did!

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